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I can't help but feel that lately I've been stuck. It seems that everyone around me is changing, growing, moving on and they're just leaving me behind in the dust. What's worse is that not only am I not changing, I'm regressing. Improvements that I thought I had made are quickly dissolving and leaving me feeling defeated, like everything I've done in the past few years has meant nothing. I'm so tired of feeling like I'm holding everyone back. I don't want to lose them but can't stand the idea that I might be hindering them. I'm just a burden they're stuck with, the good ole ball and chain they can't get rid of. And I can't seem to make myself anything other than that.
There's so much more to this train of thought but I really can't put it into coherent words at the moment. I haven't really been able to express how I've been feeling in any other way but here. Hopefully I'll turn around soon so there'll be less "doom and gloom" to read. No one wants that around anyway. And I realize that most of this is probably just in my head, but I can't be imagining all of it right?