Singleton

It sucks majorly being the only single one in my group of friends. It's only just started and already I can see that I'm never going to be able to hang out with them. They're all going to go on dates together and be all couple-like and I'm going to be left at home, alone. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for them and definitely don't want a relationship of my own. The idea absolutely terrifies me and I have been avoiding it like the plague, doing everything in my power to defend myself from it (I've been very successful I might add haha). I guess the reason it frightens me is that I'm so afraid to open myself up for rejection and vulnerability like that. I'd rather keep people at arms length than have them learn about me and dislike me. Regardless, I think I'm going to be getting a lot of reading and knitting done now that I'll be sort of forced out of plans.